Day 1

Day 1

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My Proud Candy Corn Moment

Yesterday at the drug store I caved and bought a small bag of candy corn (can you believe candy corn is already out when it's still summer).  I had two handfuls and the guilt kicked in.  I knew that I couldn't keep them without eating them all so I gave them to a girl at the office. In the past, I would have just devoured the candy and worried about feeling bad later.  I am giving myself a pat on the back for this.

Cock-a doodle-do

I am having a tough time sticking to my workout routine.  I workout in the evenings after my kids go to bed.   Lately I don't have the motivation to workout; I am exhausted from the day and simply don't feel like it. 

I read an article today which says that research shows that morning exercisers are more likely to stick to a program.  Maybe if I start a morning program, I will have better luck.  

My gym offers early group classes that I have always wanted to try.  I guess now would be the perfect time to try that 5:45am class.   I am going to have to set my alarm and force myself out of bed until I adjust to the schedule but if an early morning program brings me motivation it will be worth it.

Love Handles and Workout Pants

I have a pet peeve and I feel that I might not be alone on this one. Why doesn't someone design workout apparel for those with love handles, thunder thighs and/or muffin top. Everything out there right now is definitely not forgiving and really just accentuates the negatives. There is nothing worse than getting ready to go workout and glancing at yourself in the mirror in disgust.  Not a great way to start a workout. I find myself constantly pulling down my shirt and making sure that all my flab/dimpled areas are concealed. I know some may think that seeing your faults before a workout could be a motivator but I just find it depressing and to be a real confidence shaker.  Spanx really needs to develop workout gear!  If I could look two sizes smaller at the gym, going there would be a heck of a lot easier.

Skinny Kitty!

This sweet little stray kitten found our backyard yesterday.  He is 5 weeks old and is skin and bones.   It was 100 degrees out, the flies were swarming him and he was covered in ticks.  We are taking care of him until we can find him a home.  

Meeting this kitty definitely puts things into perspective. Here I've been complaining about how I need to loose a little weight, when this poor little innocent kitten was starving to death. 

3 Pounds Lighter but Feeling Guilty

I stepped on the scale this morning and I have lost 3 pounds. I can't believe I lost three pounds in just 5 days! I love you Jillian Michaels and stationary bike!

OK, here it goes, my big moment of truth. Since being honest with my eating habits will help me reach my ultimate weight loss goal, I must share with you my embarrassment. Just days after swearing it off, last night I caved and had Bobby's Frozen Custard with brownies and nuts. I was conscious enough to shave off some calories by ordering the 99% fat free vanilla custard however; I still cheated and will inevitably have to pay for my lack of will power.

I lost three pounds even despite my ice cream binge but maybe it could have been 4 pounds. I have to stay away from junk or those 3 pounds will be back before I know it.

Jillian Michaels Shred-it with Weights

Jillian Michaels Shred-it with Weights – The Countdown Begins

Big Booty, Sore Booty

I did interval training on the stationary bike last night and almost died. It was a real eye opener that I shouldn’t have slacked off. I have lost a lot of stamina but more importantly my booty and the bike are punishing me. If you haven’t been on a stationary bike before, it takes a while for your butt to get used to the seat. It is a killer when you start and you have to work through the pain during each session until your butt builds up tolerance to the seat and the booty ache. I think I am going to invest in those fancy cycling shorts with the padding. Isn't that funny, I have to pad my already well padded fat booty.

Farewell Ice Cream, It's a New Day!

Ok, so I took a brief hiatus but I am back and more determined than ever. I haven't gained any weight during my "vacation" but I definitely have lost strength and endurance. I got so frustrated with not seeing results and gave up to quickly. This time it is going to be different (knock on wood). I am NOT going to give up until I achieve my goal; no matter how long it takes.

PS: I am seriously considering changing my blog’s title from Blame Chocolate to Blame Ice Cream. Ice Cream is a new enemy of mine. During my hiatus I consumed embarrassing amounts of it. My first step is to remove myself from Dairy Queen and Bobby’s Frozen Custard’s email marketing list. I am like a crack addict who needs to cut off contact from her dealer. It’s downright pathetic!

Note to Self

You just went to the grocery store and bought tons of healthy snacks so WHY are you eating the kids Cheez-It's?

Are You There God? It's Me, Frustrated.

Well I did my weekly weigh-in tonight and my earlier prayer did not do the trick as I have not lost any weight this week.  I am debating if I should get on the bike to relieve my anger or if I should give in to a Starbucks Grande White Chocolate Mocha.  With the scale against me, I better pass on the Starbucks.

Dear Lord, Please Have Mercy

Dear Lord, please let my scale show mercy for tonight's weigh-in.   Please let it be kind and show a weight loss.  I need some positive reinforcement to keep me on track and making healthy decisions.  My patience is wearing thin.  I don't want to be greedy, just a pound or two would do the trick.  Thank you, thank you!

Bananas

I have discovered that bananas are very filling and help curb my appetite.  I saw this video about the Japanese Banana Diet.  I don't love bananas enough to try this but I thought it was funny.

Feeling Ok

OK, so I have been following my workout plan and have been really watching what I have been eating.  I am finally starting to enjoy working out and my stomach is getting used to the smaller portioned meals and being without chocolate and junk food.  Overall I am feeling good; I am sleeping better and I have a bit more energy, even though I don't see any changes/improvements with my body.  I read today that it takes an average of 3-6 months of working out and eating healthy to notice the results you want.  YIKES!

Lost My Marbles!

Today I must have taken a crazy pill.  I asked my husband what he thought of a pair of jeans that I was wearing.  He said they were OK, which meant to me that they were horrible and I needed to change. I changed jeans and was feeling pretty good about the new selection until I heard "I can see your underwear lines in those.  Why did you change?".  Of course, in my mind, this meant that my butt was big and my jeans were tight so I changed back into the original pair.

I think I have lost my marbles, or at least the marbles that I had left. After I quit pouting, I stepped on the scale and I have lost 2 pounds. Maybe self-pity is the key to weight loss.

My First Post

I have been working out since Jan. 2010.  I started with 2 months of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred and lost some inches and 8 pounds, but burned out.  In March; I joined my local YMCA, have been eating healthier (or at least trying to) and have lost some inches but no pounds.  I know I am off to a good start but I am very frustrated with my results.  I have heard that loosing inches before pounds is not a bad thing and that I am likely turning fat into muscle but being that I am a female, loosing pounds matters to me. 

Last night I went to the gym and gave it my all and burned 450 calories on the stationary bike.  I felt very good about my efforts.  When I got home I broke out the measuring tape and measured every area as if I would notice results since the previous night's workout.  NOPE! 

Today, I decided to create this blog as an outlet for my frustrations with my pursuit of becoming skinny.